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A collection of 6 posts

a watercolor of a zoo far off in the distance

I Don't Expect to Arrive

I think of everything that could go wrong.

Something That Feels Normal

Something That Feels Normal

I spent the entire zoo visit stressed

It's Never Just Valentine's Day

It's Never Just Valentine's Day

In the passing of years since my daughters died, I have become more prepared for the “hard days” – the hardest being their birthdays. Nelle’s birthday was Labor Day weekend that particular year, so it ushers in multiple days of grief in the subsequent years. And Iris’s birthday is

Sometimes a Bit Lucky

These past few weeks, we have felt very unlucky. Ger had a nasty bout of pneumonia that put him out of commission for about 8 days, leaving me struggling to juggle work and the kids. Then a week ago, with finally everyone healthy, we were driving to Noodles and Company

Presence

February 12th. The day of life-altering events. On February 12th, 2005, Ger asked me to marry him. And on February 12th, 2016, I learned that Iris had no heartbeat. Two years ago. The year cycles through so many anniversary dates that it feels like I am always approaching some sort

Broken Clock

The clock broke for us. Time has been standing still since May of 2015. I first learned that I was pregnant with Nelle early that month. I remember taking the test in the early morning darkness before everyone was awake. I chose to let Ger keep sleeping until about 6: