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Fixing Things

Here I am. Trying to fix things. Trying to move, keep busy, and not let myself think too much.

Something New

There are several things that I have done in the past year that I never thought I would do. I never thought I would sign a death certificate for my baby. I never thought I would be struck with a second loss, after a first. I never thought that my

A Houseplant is Dying

A Houseplant is Dying

After we lost Nelle, I was sent a beautiful plant as a gift. It was from work. My boss actually asked me if I wanted flowers or something else, and I suggested a plant. Something that would keep living. I really have a hard time keeping plants alive, but I

What The Desk Thinks

What The Desk Thinks

I am a black desk. Sturdy. In an office with an unfortunate shade of yellow walls. I knew the plan. The office was going to be turned into a nursery. There was talk that the walls were going to be repainted, maybe with a coral and teal theme. A baby

Advice to Myself

Advice to Myself

Pursue the authentic-decide first what is authentic, then go after it with all your heart. Your heart, that place you don’t even think of cleaning out. -from ‘Advice to Myself’ by Louise Erdrich My month-long self-imposed spending hiatus has not been going well. Instead of buying for myself, I