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watercolor a barren tree on a snowy day

Out of Options

It has now been 23 months since our schools first shut down.

Time With My Rainbow Baby

Time With My Rainbow Baby

All of my children started day care by the time they were a year old. I kept them home with nannies for those earliest months, but by the time they hit that “walking” age it became tricky to keep them away from me during the day while I worked – even

watercolor a double rainbow over a pond

And Now Two

Always an unwelcome "what-if" and a reminder that I can grieve and cherish at the same time.

They Were Included

Last April, my sister got married. I was the maid of honor, pregnant, constantly worried that I would lose the baby, as I lost Nelle and Iris in the two pregnancies before. I did the absolute best I could to be present, participate, while carrying fears that something would happen

Rainbows, Continued

Continuing my thoughts around rainbow babies… We were looking through our family photos, including the ones where Autumn is wearing her rainbow onesie. I said to Theo “Autumn is wearing a rainbow outfit, because she is a rainbow baby.” Pause. “When does a rainbow happen?”Theo replied quickly “After a

Rainbow's End

It is 3:00 am and I am staring into my baby’s very-alert face, willing her to go back to sleep. As her steely-blue eyes stare back at me, I thought of Iris. My baby that was supposed to be my rainbow baby. How much I wanted her, after